For as long as I can remember, I've been afraid of heights. It's not so much the being high part that scares me as the fact that I feel compelled to fling myself off of high places when I'm there.
When I was around six years old I was with my parents and we were sitting on the edge of a cliff and watching some deer run down below. I remember thinking "Jump!". So I scurried away and sat in the car because I knew that it wasn't the best idea.
A few months ago we were at a basketball game and we were sitting in the nosebleed section (wayyyyy high up in the stands) and I just knew I was going to slip and fall so I may as well just toss myself down the stairs and get it over with.
I've been having the same sort of urge lately with my blog. I see the "delete blog" button and I'm dying to hit it. I'm sure that I won't but my finger is itchy to do so.
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Maybe you just need to start over with a new name and new template. Redesigning always feels so refreshing.
And I'm always afraid of heights because I don't like the idea of plummeting to my death.
It's one of those things. . .you just want to see what would happen. I think that is the case for both scenarios. Although, if you jumped, you wouldn't really be around to see what would happen.
I got th same itchy fingr evry time I see th "spell-check" buttn.
Like you, howevr, I kno Ill nevr hit it.
Don't do it!! I like reading your blog!
(Did I say that out loud???)
Bekah - I'm snooping around for a new template to look at.
Jeni - It would be my luck, if I ever jumped, that I would live and just be all fucked up the rest of my life because of it.
Joey Polanski - I thought your blogger didn't have a spell-check button. I must admit - it took me a lot of quick visits before I was able to read and decipher your writing.
Neverezme - I'm not going anywhere! I promise :)
What other sort of urges do you get. The itchy finger gave me several ideas. ;)
Seriously, don't even think about deleting your blog. Not even in jest. You and your family are priceless.
Really, ya'll - I'm not gonna do it. I'm sure the urge will pass. I'd be too pissed with myself afterwards to really hit the button.
do it
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lot safer than jumping off the bleachers.
you can always start anew if you change your mind later.
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do it
I am afraid of lows - every time I walk into a low spot, I freeze. The worst is where the sidewalk is dished in for the wheel chairs, I stood in one of those for two days before someone came and got me out.
I'm afraid of widths
Don't delete your blog! You would have alot of sad people.
I get those weird compulsions too sometimes. Glad to know i'm not the only one.
I hope you don't. I just wrote on MY blog about how much I love reading yours. BUT then again, I know how it can be.
Hugs.
(and I get the same compulsion sometimes about just throwing myself down stairs...weird, huh?)
I don't like heights either. I have been known to kill a blog or two and won't say I won't do it again. Sometimes it's liberating.
Don't do it.
I'm there with you lately- Zube and I actually talked about it last night. It's like "Oh wll, I already said everything..." But don't- maybe redesign is the way to get it rolling again. I'm considering it myself.
Oh don't your dare delete your blog, my dear Chickie...or if you must...PLEASE start a new one immediately! So many people woulds miss reading and visiting you and hearing about Tiny & Stinky & Sweety....And ABSOLUTELY NO JUMPING!!!!
Its like when you wonder "what would happen if I stepped off the curb in front of that bus?"
Deep down inside you want to. You understand the consequences and you still want to, but you never do.
I think it is what seperates the wackos from the sane people. Wackos would never wonder "what if?" they would just do it.
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