Maybe I'm Oversharing

 Sweety is having health issues.  He has an ascending aortic aneurysm in his heart.  It's big enough that he can't keep his medical card for his CDL driver's license so he's not working right now.  He's still getting paid 75% of his average daily pay and that is truly a lifesaver.  This is the third time he's been off for medical issues and the company has been wonderful with taking care of us every time.  The company he works for will completely cover the cost of surgery so that is very good.  They have a medical center just for this sort of thing.  They will pay travel costs for both of us, hotel, and food while we're there.  We don't know yet when the surgery will be.  We're in the first stages of getting everything scheduled.  I'm trying to not freak out.  I'm just afraid his heart is gonna pop before he can have surgery.

The Bean has started getting her period.  I, on the the other hand, have realized I'm done with getting mine and that menopause is over for me.  Both things make me feel really old.  Bean started getting hers a couple of months ago and I didn't realize it.  She told me she had brown discharge and I told her it was normal for it to be different colors.  It later occurred to me what was going on and I told her to let me know if it happened again.  Sometimes I am clueless.

I'm weaning myself off of flavored water and it's harder than I thought.  I hate drinking water.  It tastes weird.  We do have filtered water. I just don't like it.  I'm trying to fast all day and have one meal in the evening.  Since your blood sugar goes up after eating, I figured it would be better to just eat and have it go up once instead of 3 times a day.  I did one meal a day awhile back and once I got used to it, I felt really good.  Then I fell off the wagon.  I am super scared of going blind or having my feet fall off because of the diabetes.  This is a good motivator to make some changes.  I'm even going for a walk after I have my meal today.  I'm telling myself I don't have to run a marathon.  Just speed walk around the block to start.   

Hola!

 Well I've discovered something that I like more than eating anything and everything that tickles my fancy.  Walking.  Yeah.  Last week I got to deal with diabetic neuropathy.  This happens when your blood sugar runs too high for too long and the nerves get injured.  My feet hurt like a motherfucker.  I can honestly say I've never had pain like that before.  It was worse than passing a kidney stone.  I spent 3 days in bed because it hurt so bad to put pressure on my feet.  Getting to the bathroom was a shuffling, suppressing screams, ordeal.  I drug myself to the doctor on Wednesday when I realized it was getting worse instead of better and they gave me some medicine to help.  What also helps is bringing your blood sugar down so I freaked out and didn't eat hardly anything last week.  On the upside, I am down 10 pounds and am using that as my jumping off point for making my diet better.  I've got 100 pounds to lose and I know it'll take some time.  I keep reminding myself that I didn't get here overnight and it's not gonna come off overnight.  I've been carefully watching my carb intake and my feet feel almost normal now.  Thank you, eight and a half pound baby Jesus.

This weekend a friend took me to Disney!  We went to the Halloween party and Epcot.  My feet were still a bit off so we took plenty of breaks when needed.  She assembled costumes for us to wear.  I was Lilo from Lilo & Stitch and she was Lilo's sister Nani.  We wore hula skirts and leis.  Met some characters and had a large time.  The next day we went to Epcot.  They're having the Food & Wine Festival so we ate around the world.  Had lots of good little nibbles and rode some rides.  I like going to Disney with my friend because she knows her way around and I don't have to think.  I can just follow her.

My friend was going to get a little French Bulldog from a lady down here so we went to see the 7 week old puppy yesterday.  Got a message from the woman this morning that the puppy had died.  It aspirated on some milk and passed away.  I feel especially bad for my friend because her last dog died a few months ago and now this.  Some things just aren't meant to be I guess.

We fared okay with Hurricane Ian.  A ton of rain and wind but no flooding.  Almost a whole side of our fence blew down though.  Sweety was on it and replaced it within two days though so the dogs got their yard back quickly.  Unfortunately, our fence isn't big panels of pickets so he could just put new panels up, it's done with individual pickets.  The Bean and I moved all 130 pickets from where he unloaded them in the front yard to the backyard where he needed them.  Bean is a good little helper.

My nephew and his wife moved into their own place this weekend.  The house feels especially empty now.  They moved into the same complex that my sister lives in (nephew's mom) so I'm glad they get to be close to help each other out if needed.  On the upside, I can run around the house naked again.

Are You a Traveling Man?

 We just got back from our annual trip to Oklahoma and Texas.  It was so nice to get away with Sweety and the Bean.  While we were out there, I did something different and didn't visit friends.  We were only in Oklahoma for a few days and it was stressing me out to figure out how to see who and when so I just didn't.  We stayed in a cabin and just chilled out around the campground.  It was good. 

We did go clean up Mom's cemetery plot.  Huge shout out to Sweety for doing all of the work in 108 degree weather.  He set me up in the shade with a chair and water to supervise.  I wish we didn't live so far away so we could do it more often.  A friend and her husband weed eat it and tidy it the best they can when the cemetery has their annual cleaning day in May.  So all the weeds were dead, we just had to clean out and throw stuff away.  It ended up looking nice again.

Bean got to visit her first online friend.  She met this kid playing games online almost a year ago and they text and FaceTime every day.  We picked him up for lunch so they got to hang out for a couple of hours.  Bean was so nervous about meeting him that she just giggled and shook for a good while.  My nephew (formerly known as my niece) said that Bean was just like her Mama, meeting internet friends.  I guess Bean does take after me.

My nephew and his wife are staying with us for a little while.  While they get housing and schooling sorted out.  I'm loving having them here.  Sometimes I'll look at my nephew and remember that he's a grownup with a wife and a job and it makes me feel really old.  I'm super proud of him.  He got a job down here pretty quickly as did his wife.  They have two doggos so we have a house full right now.  They are well behaved so it's not bad.  One of the dogs has a real issue with Sweety though and loses his everloving shit when he sees or hears Sweety.  I told them that I think their dog needs an exorcism because when they take him somewhere out of the house, the whole mood is different. 

Oh, y'all!  I did something fun while we were traveling!  I took Chi Chi 2.0 on the trip and took her photo in different places.  I think I'm going to continue it at home too.  She can go to lunch and sightseeing with me.  She has a Facebook and an Instagram .  I couldn't decide which platform that I wanted to use so they both have the same stuff.

For Crying Out Loud

​So the Bean has this field trip tomorrow & she needs her swimsuit. I have asked her for the past two days if she has her suit. She always answers yes. Tenfuckingthirty at night, the night before the trip, she informs me that she can’t find her swim bottoms. 

Excuse me? WTF. I pretty much lost any shred of self restraint and chewed her a new asshole. I knew the damn suit bottoms had to be here somewhere. We eventually found them. After finding them, Bean was apologizing for telling me that she had her suit when she didn’t and she started to cry.

Now I feel like the biggest asshole around for grouching at her so much. I was so mad that I got lightheaded. I don’t think I’ve ever grouched at her like this before. But damn kid, keep track of your stuff!

It Feels Like Home

I guess my blogging adventure has come full circle.  The old URL that I used after this one has been overtaken by Japanese p0rn so don't go there.  Unless you're into that sort of thing.  I tried blogging at a new place but it just didn't feel right.  Even though I hadn't been here since 2008, I remembered how to login and consider it a sign. 

My anxiety med ran out a few days ago and when I went to refill it, they told me that I had to wait a few more days even though it had been 30 days since the last refill.  Instead of calling my doctor's office to see if they could to anything about it, I decided to just wing it and go without it for a few days.  Big mistake.  I am fucked up.  It feels like electricity is touching my brain every now and then and my teeth feel weird on top of me feeling weird.  Thankfully, I can get more tomorrow.

We break up the Bean's summer with camp weeks every now and then.  She's a little antisocial, (she comes by that honestly) and complains leading up to every new week but once she goes, she's happy and has fun.  Today started a new camp week and she had a good day.  I'm glad.  She's complaining about tomorrow because they have a field trip where they're going to go snorkeling at a spring and she doesn't want to go.  I reminded her that she was all bah humbug about the last two water field trips but ended up having fun.  I know tomorrow will be the same.  Heck, I'd like to go snorkeling!